Everything is true except the idea that things are true. Patterns and other perceived order are anomalies in a dimension agnostic field of infinite chaos that nests itself recursively and fractally. In it, every demarkation, association and categorization is a construct and therefore an illusion created by language.

From Taoist teachings to postmodern philosophy to the Discordian Hidden Temple of Happy Jesus, the idea to embrace chaos and uncertainty and accept many truths at once can be found in religions and ideologies all over the world. In these schools of thought, all things are true and false in some sense and facts are always considered simplifications of what are in actuality weighted probability functions — sometimes, with high bias towards a certain outcome, like the law of gravity. Truth becomes a subjective reality, framed by individual and collective identity.

How do we make these subjective realities through language? If we create new words, how does it change our idea of what reality is?

If there are no absolute truths and definitions, concepts like gender or nationality stop making sense. In this world without strict demarkations, how can we still form a sense of self?

When we embrace an existence in a purposeless system with ever increasing entropy that slowly nullifies all significance until we only have noise in all dimensions and scales, will we find meaning by doing The Things that only make us happy and fighting to have more resources and more fun than everybody else, or will we transcend individuality and through new languages move towards a collective consciousness, tasked only with kaleidoscopic exploration?

I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth. — Umberto Eco

We grow in direct proportion to the amount of chaos we can sustain and dissipate. — Ilya Prigogine

It is my firm belief that it is a mistake to hold firm beliefs. — Malaclypse the Younger

okay nice but what
will you do with these
enormous questions my enby

I recognize that every single one of these questions could be a topic to write an entire library full of books about. It's not my intention to actually answer how reality is created, what meaning is, how we form our own identity and which way to find a purpose in life is better. That would be:

  1. insane
  2. directly go against the whole premise of there not being a final answer to any of these questions

I will set up three (3) projects to Explore these questions. These explorations will be technological, meaning they will all use, in some form, programming and interactivity as a way to approach them. These projects will be highly subjective attempts to explore multiple perspectives on these topic. They will likely get individual briefs soon. When they do, I will link to them here. For now, though:

→ the project that does stuff with language and identity

Making your own words and alphabet is weird. At first, it expresses how you see the world and think reality works. Then, it starts to influence those views by giving you words you never knew you always needed. I created a fictional universe with its own language and wrote a story about this universe. This year, I'd like to explore this further and use the language to explore my own perspective on different ideas of what identity can be.


→ collective vs individual purpose

What does a group do when there's no purpose and unrestricted self-expression? Will it form a community from the chaos and work together to build something or will it hyperindividualize and end up with selfish vandalism? I'm fascinated by the idea of self-organisation. In an anarchist utopia, the individual disappears into the group they belong to, a collective consciousness forms and the community acts as one. But under what conditions does this happen? What causes someone to troll, to grief, to vandalize?


→ the one with all the religious and occult stuff

Worshipping or at least embracing chaos is a common theme in a variety of religions and occult practices. There are common, well-known ones like Taoism or Chaos magic. There are more obscure ones, like Discordianism. Accepting many, often contradictory, truths simultaneously seems to be an important step towards enlightenment. I'm interested in comparing these religions and practices. Where do their fundamental teachings start to differ? Are they even different at all, or do they overlap and provide multiple perspectives on the same thing? And why are so many people who code interested in this stuff?


The Principia Discordia
Lain zine
Is Ornamenting Solar Panels A Crime?
Tilde Town